I failed my CFI checkride again

I feel the worst. The first time I did on a short field landing as my DPE wanted me to simulate we have a 50ft obstacle over the threshold, and after 6 hours of oral I was so tired and busted it there and then

But I picked myself up and practiced EVERYTHING I needed again and today on the checkride I did all the maneuvers correctly, yet AGAIN on the landings this time I dropped the nose wheel early on the landings.

I feel so discouraged now its insane. I had a clean record before and in a month - 2 busts. I hoped to get a job at my school after this checkride but im really not sure they- or most other schools will give me a chance after today

This is mostly a vent, sorry

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