how am i supposed to find distraction when nothing seems right? how am i supposed to stop shaking when all i hear is hardly pounding heart, thoughts swirling in my head? how am i supposed to put the end to it when i can only clench my jaw so hard teeth are threatening to break, dig nails into palms and breathe through it? cause i can’t fall apart now, it’s not the right time, but i wonder what will happen in a while.