👼{삶} kim seungmin - 김승민

altschmerz — n. a sense of weariness with the same old problems that you’ve always had.

the same boring issues and anxieties you’ve been gnawing on for decades, which makes you want to spit them out and dig up some fresher pain you might have buried in your mental backyard. the pain has turned into tiredness, which has appeared as an oppressive boredom, turning every moment into groundhog day. it's become too boring, but it still worries you. as if you're still in that autumn that killed everything alive in you, shattering into pieces, but over time, clumsily picking it up again, wrapping the healing wounds with groggy tape. has it been a while since you felt anything?