👼{삶} han jisung - 한지성

rubatosis — n. the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.

pounding, which tenuous muscular throbbing feels less like a metronome than a nervous ditty your heart is tapping to itself, as if to casually remind the outside world: “i’m here, i’m here, i’m here”. beat piercing the chest, itching the brain, making you cringe with the sensation of everything and nothing at once. time freezes, and the focus shifts from the world around to a wildly pounding, irritating something, generating anxiety and panic spreading through your body. limbs feel weak, and everything around becomes unbearable. too much. will anyone notice the sudden shift?