actually i wanted to write something in english as it's my typical condition during reflection but then i realized i have no exact thought to express.

my thoughts are quite usual now. like, i think about how easy life is. and it's not me living in the world of unicorns or trying to cover problems with a fluffy blanket, it's the reality we are facing.

problems exist, and it would be stupid to deny it. at the same time, we all have choices on how to deal with them. when i was asked to give some advices to teens, i said you should minimize the discomfort in life. you still can not control every single thing that is happening to you (and you still can control some of your reactions), but I strongly believe in the important issues you are always to choose (at least when you are more than eighteen and not considered a child).

we had a little discussion with a friend of mine on it, and he said there're situations when you have to deal with people who are not as pleasant as you wish them to be and desctructive situations in general. i partly agree, but i still believe it's a deal of choice. like, it's uneasy when you have a child and you need money, but it still doesn't mean you can't change anything and you have to continue working in a place that it is not up to your expectations. trying is about taking risks, and risks are unpleasant when mixed with responsibility, but what if you win?

and therefore the most frequent thought in my mind is about people who always have excuses. like, they are not satisfied with their life and they never influence it because they thought they can't. when i was younger i just wanted to open their eyes and show the unlimited possibilities in life, now i let them go and never let them come closer (except for the dearest who have hard times obviously)