Heartache on the Big Screen

lucky me, a mutual of ours introduced us just because we had this little thing in common, enjoying movies. lucky me, i gained your trust enough to help you manage your movie talking platform, and somehow, along the way, we became friends over so many things beyond movies. lucky me, we were there for each other through our breakups, and even luckier that somewhere along the way, we realized we wanted to be more than just the people who were there for each other when things fell apart. lucky me, you asked me to be your girlfriend in the most exciting way, and lucky me, no matter how hard life has thrown things at us, we always somehow find our way back to each other. and after everything, lucky me, we're still each other's loml, from august 2020 until this very day.

6 years full of love. I will continue to love you forever and always. Here's to eternity and beyond. ❤️

how can a person make love feel so much easier? that's the question that keeps popping into my head whenever I think about our 6th anniversary. and by easier, I mean that it's easy for me to drop everything else and come back to your arms. it's easy for me to want to become a better person and a better partner for us. it's easy for me to love myself because I see the way you love me. when I say easy, I don't mean that we've simply happened to make it this far. I mean that, somehow, neither of us ever really sees another choice besides fixing, understanding, and working through what we have. even when things get difficult, choosing each other has always felt like the most natural thing to do. you've made love feel so easy and so calming.

in these past 6 years, we've loved each other, fought, broken up, found our way back to each other, kissed, refused to talk to each other, and then somehow never wanted the conversation to end. we've been angry over each other's absence, learned to understand each other's lives outside of us, and grown through so many versions of ourselves together. you're the first and only person I've ever loved through every important aspect, every meaningful moment, and every kind of situation I've experienced over these past 6 years. and to me, that's the most unbreakable bond I've ever had. so I hope this bond stays with us forever, even when our time comes to an end and we're no longer as close as we are now. I hope that somewhere within us, there will always be a part of what we were, what we are, and everything we've been to each other.

I love you. in every moment we've had, I have always loved you. and in every moment we're going to have, whether it brings us closer or eventually takes us in different directions, I hope you always know that I will love you, cayang. you're my everything. 🍀♥️

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earlier, we were talking about everything we’ve been through in these 5¾ years together. realizing how much we’ve survived made me see that we’ve discovered new kinds of love and new levels of heartbreak too. we’ve sacrificed so much for each other’s peace of mind, feelings, and well being. we’ve had moments where we laughed and loved so hard, moments where we fought and cried our eyes out, moments where we could barely held ourselves together in silence, even though not talking to each other means that we're losing our minds. but no matter what happened through all those years, there’s always been this invisible string tying you and me together, always pulling us back to each other so we could find our way home again. I think that's why no one will ever fully understand what we have. no one sees the way we communicate, the way we understand each other without needing to explain too much, or how we somehow made it here today in peace, choosing to focus and appreciating on what we have now instead of being anxious about the future. all of this made me realize how deeply in love I am with you. you’re the person I talk to every single day, the person i want to come back to whenever something new happens to me, the person I look for first in the morning, the person I’ve shared my life with for years and after all these years, I still want you beside me through everything. I love you, Z, for the highs, the lows, and every moment in between. 🎞