I‘m so ashamed of being Aegosexual

So I‘m in a loving relationship with my girlfriend. I‘ve told her i‘m Aegosexual (means I like sexual things in media but whenever I‘m involved the idea repulses me) and she was really supportive and kind. But sometimes when I talk about a good book I read that has sexual scenes in them and get excited about, I feel ashamed cause she can‘t have that with me. Sometimes it feels like I‘m dangling the idea in front of her face without a promise to pull through. I don‘t know what to do to make that feeling go away. I honestly have no idea how I‘m gonna get that into my head that she loves me either way, no matter how often she says it.

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