I am sexually attracted to one person in this world

1) Till age 12, I used to get crushes and after that no matter how hard i tried, i never felt the "crush" feeling. Just turned 23.



2) I have only imagined and dreamed like in my sleep about having sex with one person ever. I can't even think about third base and coitus with anyone except this person. Everytime I try imagining with someone else, it feels like I'm doing it to prove it to myself that I'm "normal".



3) I have been in "relationships" and I kept it online ,only meeting for few hours once a year cause I feared I might get pressured into having sex.



4) I have kissed before but it genuinely feels like rubbing skin on skin lmao.


5) I'm on high dose of sex hormones and yet I don't wanna have sex with anyone except this individual for the first time ever, even though I'm sexually aroused 24x7 I just can't think about having sex ever with anybody else. I tried experimenting on having sexual attraction to people by watching porn and I felt nothingggg.


6) I have tried making sexual attraction happen from scratch before but nothing everrrr worked and I just mentally exhausted myself and had to be put on Wellbutrin for 3 months.

Haven't done anything with this particular individual tho.

You could put some gigachad infront of me buttnaked and I wouldn't even get sexually stimulated 😭😭✌️

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