Anyone else embarrassed by their virginity?

Anyone (specifically if you’re sex adverse or repulsed) embarrassed that they’re a virgin?

I’m in my late 30s and am a virgin. I am even embarrassed to publish that here anonymously.

I’m sex repulsed. I don’t have any desire to and have always avoided dating because it makes me deeply uncomfortable to even consider.

But no one in my life knows. My friends are all married and talk about their sex lives. I just nod and listen.

I hear the negative comments from people though. For example, a good friend speculated that one of her ex boyfriends was gay because “he was a freaking virgin til he was 22.” A late aunt of mine disclosed to my mom that she had been a virgin (until her death in her 70s) because she was religious and didn’t believe in sex before marriage and she never married. My whole family then had negative comments about that as though they couldn’t believe it.

Those are just a couple examples I’ve heard people in my life toss around and it makes me not want to ever disclose that I am a virgin. Even to doctors!

I’ve had a friend ask me directly recently when it came up due to the nature of the convo and I lied and said I did have sex and when she asked who with I got awkward and just said “no one you know.”

How do I overcome this embarrassment when the conversation of sex comes up so often?!

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