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If I could only tell where I am,
If I could tell the friend from the foe,
If I knew there was life in this place,
Would I still have a reason to go?
In this room, you don't close the curtains,
There are no windows left to cover.
You don't lock the door when you're sleeping,
The lock is waiting on the other side.
You don't have to know what time it is here,
The alarm winds itself every night.
And I keep waking up before morning,
Just to find I was never outside.
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So tell me which side of the wall I'm on,•
Tell me whose hands I'm holding tonight.
If I bite the one who came to save me,
Will you call it a warning or a crime?
If you leave, I'll wrap myself around you,•
If you strike, I'll bite because I'm scared.
I'll tear the old skin from my shoulders
If it gives me one excuse for air.
In this church, nobody is praying,•
Everybody already loves you.
No one ever leaves here unnoticed,
Every eye is trained on you.
In this hospital, nobody's sick here,
They say sickness never came inside.
And somehow I became the doctor,
While somebody else was left to die.
I keep looking for a pulse in the silence,
Keep calling every silence a sign.
If I am the one who's meant to heal you,
Why is your blood still warmer than mine?
So tell me which one of us is breathing,
Tell me which one of us is confined.
If the patient isn't meant to know the answer,
Why am I the doctor every time?
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If you leave, I'll wrap myself around you,
If you strike, I'll bite because I'm scared.
I'll tear the old skin from my shoulders
If it gives me one excuse for air.
I don't know your name,
But something in me knows you're a friend.
If you see an adder where there's only a grass snake,
I'm sorry -
I just want out of this place.
•
On this stage, there are no celebrities,
Just people hiding underneath.
Every face is closed like mine is,
Every mouth is learning how to breathe.
On the screen, they're not just videos,
They're stories dressed up as miracles.
Someone turned our wounds into pictures,
Someone made the impossible visible.
And the nine towers aren't just buildings,
They're a graveyard counting what we've lost.
Every day that had a number
Has a stone beneath its name.
No one finds the time to grieve here,
Everyone is waiting for the sunrise.
Then a hurried parliament and courtroom
Come to interrupt the light.
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And maybe I was wrong about the room.•
Maybe walls are only walls
Until somebody tells you
that there is nowhere else to go.
Maybe I was wrong about the door.
Maybe locked doesn't mean forever.
Maybe all this time
I was holding the handle from the wrong side.
If you are the one who found me,
Don't become another thing I fear.
If my teeth are all I know to use,
Then give me something else to hold.
If you leave, I'll wrap myself around you,
If you strike, I'll bite because I'm scared.
I'll tear the old skin from my shoulders
And let the daylight find me there.
I don't know your name,
But something in me knows you're a friend.
If you see an adder where there's only a grass snake,
Don't run -
I am trying to shed this skin.
I don't know your name,
But something in me knows you're a friend.
If I hurt you while I'm trying to escape,
Forgive me.
I want out.
I want out.
I want out of this place.
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There's a crack every time unseen stars
The walls don't speak, they only listen.
The bells don't ring, they only wait.
And somewhere underneath the silence:
"Tacet us."
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@topicteampresents • #song