Yk a year ago I wanted to be like one of my idols that isnt real named goku while being barley 20 I realised im turning out like vegeta

Fighting
Trying
Experiencing

But still sometimes not enough and I think about myself that everything I do is wrong and starting to doubt myself

Sometimes I ask myself who am I
Yk the first rule of loving your friends and family is to love yourself first but sometimes I kinda dont

Idk if this is being "too much soft" or anything but sometimes even little things hurts my feelings and makes me kinda lose my spirit

I think about past and the mistakes I made
I just wanna move on from the negative stuff but sometimes the past itself haunt me