idk maybe its alright to cry i wanna cry right now but u cant let myself i feel like shit again im not sure in anything... like ahhhh. im tired. i wanna rest but i dont have time to. i wanna fill myself again bur everything feels wrong and its draining. i cant love anything to the full extend. everything in my life seems like a half measure. im sorry if i put it on all of you and discomfort you but im so tired. why do i always have to compose myself. why cant i just let myself be.