im baffled by life and my common mistakes
am i able to pursue, to do what it takes?
to finally finish and leave all the pain
behind to dwell and soak in the rain

my body betrays and wants you to win
my mind wouldn't mind taking me for a spin
i dont know how to properly handle the past
how to rightfully go and forget it at last

it's over for you and im glad you were there
for me when i needed your warmth and your care
im grateful. i wouldn't be the same without you
i couldn't imagine it out of the blue...

is what i wanted to say if i wasnt enraged.
was not filled with hate and disgraceful despair
i despise seeing you, hearing you talk
your footsteps echo in my head as you walk.

but mostly i hate the fact that you're here -
not physically, no. im ill to the core
im sick of obsessing over everything you did,
or do

after all this poem is STILL ABOUT YOU😭