am i enough?

growing up, most people see me as someone who works hard. but no one had really asked why i work hard. i myself never questioned why i do so either. this is something i’ve been thinking about lately and i think i can summarise my motivations into:

• there are certain futures or projects that i really want to see as a reality
i think this is pretty straight forward. i hold certain beliefs on how we can be communicating or playing online and offline. and i would like to touch those possible futures and invite them into my life

• for most of the time, i dont feel like im enough
this might sound sad at first glance, and it might just actually be sad lol. but this is so apart of me (and maybe apart of a lot of asian kids’) upbringing that it’s like oxygen for me; i consider this feeling the default feeling to hold. it wasn’t until someone said to me “stop being so arrogant and think you are not enough” that i felt like the world paused for a moment, my soul was slapped, and i had to reconsider the values that i hold

「不要自以为是的觉得你不够好」他对我说道