damn this was a week where i felt like: “being a solo founder is kinda like being a single parent.” im feeling much better after burying myself in netflix (“heart stopper” is a A+ show) and taking a 4-hour nap today

what happened this week? there wasn’t a single event that was particularly stressful or draining. it was the way everything was relying on me to make a decision and how certain coworkers weren’t self-driven or proactive enough that compounded into an overwhelming week. i might sound harsh here but im blaming myself for how this week turned out. after all, im building the team and im setting the team expectations, so there’s actually no one else to blame

i have been learning and reflecting a lot on team building and the kinds of quality traits that are needed for an early stage startup. startups that are going through the 0-1 phase is an extremely unstable and blurry stage. it is very demanding: everyone need to wear multiple hats, is intensely curious & self-driven, and be a teammate others can lean on. the goal of an early stage startup is to move fast in defining and answering unknown product questions. how? this is only made possible when everyone work to push things forward

this last two weeks i’ve been reading this book on how to write scripts (the book is called "talking with script doctor about script writing") and i’m happily surprised to learn how much similarities there are in successful scripts and products. they both tend to:
- struck a chord with people; it touches something deeply human
- give this liveliness feeling to people; without your viewing that universe lives on, because it’s alive
- draw you into the story timeline and makes you feel some type of way; a mundane character or story won’t do it

这个礼拜累趴了，但是想想还是觉得是自己表达和团建能力还不够成熟