You're still here. Four years of watching cycles bend. You didn't sell at the bottom, didn't panic at 3am, didn't quit when SOL went dead and everyone screamed exit. That bag is loading because you already paid the price most people won't. The next move is yours.
Your best trades feel wrong because conviction and comfort live in opposite rooms. When you're actually right, the crowd is usually wrong. When the crowd agrees with you, you're usually late. That discomfort is the signal. The problem is your brain reads discomfort as danger, so you bail before the move finishes. Real conviction is when you can explain why you're wrong and you still don't sell. Hopium is when you can't.
You're in year four of watching cycles bend back. The ones who stayed quiet while everyone else panic sold are about to remember why they held. Your patience is about to look like genius.