to better understand my characters, i should probably tell you what thoughts and parts of myself I put into them. through johtaja, after numerous difficult and traumatic events in my life, i wanted to convey the fear of loss and how to cope with the loss/es that has already happened. what it's like to live in the oppressive aura of death and what it is to live after you lost everything and no longer have the opportunity to live in peace.

through paihuai, the blind thirst of revenge for someone, how your own meaning in life lies only in the desire to take a revenge and after that revenge, you no longer feel anything. only complete devastation and fear for your life now. through her, i wanted to show how human desires and lack of self-control destroy youserlf and now you are no different from an animal. perhaps, even an animal is better than you