crazy shit you think about at approximately 6 am when you haven't slept for fucking ages

I'd burn my house to say I'm busy
I don't wanna help you
your parents had gone missing
I won't be there for you
laying under weighted blanket
sleeping this one through
they said this time I really fumbled
I expect some care from you

but oh how much I don't
want to be this real
I so, so much have
to learn some discipline

(and then you pretend to sleep just so you can tell your friends that you had a dream about something really important to you. you lie to them, obviously just in need to be heard. but they don't really care this time, or at least you think so)