I used to get frustrated that Whites couldn’t say n1gg3R in public without being attacked and ostracized, and it bothered me to no end that the n-word taboo was part of this systematic double standard of “racial equality” that was imposed mainly on Whites. Whites are still expected to treat everyone equally regardless of race, despite all other races (especially blacks and Jews) maintaining racial boundaries (like the n-word) and enjoying racial in-group privileges (e.g. racial nepotism, ethnostates like Israel, etc…). What bothered me most about this was that it simply wasn’t fair. It objectively isn’t fair that other races get to be racist, have racial boundaries and exclusive associations, whereas Whites aren’t allowed to have any official racial boundaries whatsoever.

What I’ve come to realize was that this frustration ultimately comes from a position of a sort of “reluctant racism.” I think it’s a phase of the race pill, an early phase of White Nationalism. You see examples of this with the black fatigue meme. Many Whites are becoming racially aware simply out of frustration that other races have utterly failed to assimilate for far too long. They grew up believing and wishing that other races would one day fully assimilate to our culture and identifying with us as in some post-racial version of Western society.

But as your thinking advances, you come to realize that it’s a huge blessing that other races failed to assimilate, that they are physically and culturally repulsive, rude, aggressive, criminally inclined and so on — because it provides the initial shock that awakens Whites to the biological reality of race and racial identity, whereas they might otherwise be too content to notice or care.

I now see the N-word taboo as something the actually helps us quite a lot. “Of course we can’t use that word when blacks are around, because they don’t identify with us! Let that sink if you think race doesn’t matter.”