​"I am an empty person inside, and today especially I feel a massive void. I feel a longing for death; all my dreams are about my own death, and every single day I dream of a new way I die. I feel a yearning for death and to end everything. I have lost my passion for everything and I hate life. I wish I were in a prison rather than my room; prison is freedom compared to where I am.
​I know I am a bad person and I have wronged you, but I want to change, I want it so badly, yet I don't know how. I have fallen into a deep well that I cannot climb out of, I have wished for my death thousands of times, and I don't care about life.
​I love some people, but they don't understand me, and I don't know how to convey my true love to them. Words can sometimes be fake, except for the people I love; I love thinking in terms of genuine words. I truly wish, even if I die, that you all have a beautiful life. You are truly my loved ones, and I want a good life for you; I hope you live in peace. I wish this for everyone, especially the people I cared about so deeply and those I loved one day. Even if there was a problem between us before, please know that I have forgotten it and forgiven you, and I hope you forgive me for any moments of anger, because nothing is worth it. I wish a beautiful life for everyone, I love you all.
​This is an expression of my current state; I am not thinking about or planning suicide, I am just waiting for the day of my passing out of pure curiosity to see what will happen.