my search to learn about emotional suppression ended up to crazy findings i was unaware of.

i noticed something really weird in my perception, i was like ignoring part of the things in people around. while you can say it is just being arrogant, but then i noticed that i haven’t seen some sex related stuff, seemingly harmless, like not noticing a hot dress. meanwhile i had the thought very vivid “oh it would be nice her to wear nice dress”. which is bizarre right? i want stuff that i am already getting and i just ignore it. meanwhile it is not high level thing it is a low, almost hormonal, level which has much less chance of being affected by beliefs.

well it turns out when you suppress feelings you are not suppressing only them but also perception of stuff that can trigger some emotions.

think about it. you are depressed - you are suppressing positive things about you. you try to be professional at work and completely miss that someone is into you at your work. you try to focus on work, you missing out on sex. which is totally aligned how overworked individuals or communities has much less sex.

i am pretty sure there are second order effects of this: i am pretty sure that this could affect my ability to build products. if u suppress empathy (on a very high level - not turning into a psycho) - you miss people around you and you can’t build a good product anymore since you have no clue what people are doing, want, love. at the moment most of my personal attempts that failed now looks very very immature indeed. i still not sure that this is true but surely feels like.