𝒻or dear @theBamshi

To be in love with him is to love a man who has convinced himself he is incapable of being loved, and to spend every day quietly proving him wrong in ways he will never verbally acknowledge but will feel in his bones, because he has spent his entire life believing he is nothing more than a weapon for hire. As a partner, he is rough around the edges-blunt, emotionally closed off, and prone to disappearing for days, but he shows affection through actions rather than words, like coming home covered in blood and checking if you are okay before tending to his own wounds, or standing between you and any threat without hesitation because protecting you has become the one thing in his life that feels meaningful. In private he is barely affectionate, but when he does reach for you with a hand on your waist n pulling you against his chest in the middle of the night, resting his head in your lap without a word n those moments carry more weight than any grand gesture ever could. He has been used and discarded his entire life and has never been anyone's first choice, so being with him means being patient with his walls, gentle with his wounds, and unwavering in your presence, because he will test you by pushing you away to see if you will leave like everyone else has, and the greatest gift you can give him is to keep choosing him anyway. Being with Toji is not easy and it is not pretty, but it is real in a way few things are, and to be loved by him, even silently even imperfectly is to hold something rare and precious that he never thought he would have.