the only word I can find to describe life rn is overwhelming

I’m everywhere and nowhere. people around me are friendly but not friends

i’m not delusional enough to be overjoyed by the events in my life, because there are downsides and setbacks

i cannot even find anything in me to write a coherent post, so let’s just say that i taught you a couple of new words

delusional - заблуждающийся, витающий в своих иллюзиях
overjoyed - вне себя от радости
a downside - обратная сторона, недостаток
a setback - неудача, регресс