★ For dear Mercurial stories
222. "sometimes i wonder who i am... well most times. i’ve become so accustomed to wearing masks around different people and faking a smile with so much pain... that, i ask myself: who? am? i? i have to take that step back, evaluate, and decide. what makes me... me? what qualities do i have? how do other perceive me? i end up getting to the conclusion to stop getting in my own head and being silly. to sit back and relax. but i’m one of the rare few that has so much trouble relaxing. my mind wanders.... i’m a dreamer they say. i think too in depth. oh well."