📚 I think… I THINK… I might be experiencing being Nastenka. Not because two men love me, but because I suddenly understand how terrifying it is to be loved by someone gentle when your own heart is still somewhere you haven’t figured out how to leave. How much I want to reciprocate his feelings but just cannot, and how much I’ve blamed myself for that, because it feels unfair to him, and even to me. I know there’s a lot I need to sit with within myself first, and I think I need to do that before I can really understand what I want or what I’m capable of giving.

Anyway, setting aside the romance that might seem superficial, there’s so much more to learn from White Nights. Despite all the negative reviews, I’d still recommend giving it a read and trying to look at it from another perspective.