Pakistani Asexual girl

So i am new here and i am having difficulty finding an asexual partner.... people say that maybe i am.mot asexual or maybe i am just scared and i haven't tried so I don't know but the thing is even if it's trauma and fear i don't want to change myself and i don't wanna try to like sex because i want a love marriage and i don't feel sex is love for me i don't know how to describe but i don't want sex but people judge me and tell me maybe you are just scared and you will Change amd you will regret this time but how do i tell them that it's not like that...

But the thing is i am having trouble finding asexual life partner and i wonder will i never find my partner of life if I don't try to change myself??? I am a lover girl amd i do want love...

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