How do you know if you’re demisexual or sex repulsed?

I’m really struggling to figure out what I am because for a while I thought I was sex repulsed and would never want to have sex but the past few relationships the idea seemed not so bad anymore but I never got to the point of wanting it but also those relationships had a lot of problems so that could have been part of the reason why. I’ve had some people tell me they felt sex repulsed until they met the right person. And they told me to wait until I want to do it but I know some people are sex neutral so what if I’m sex neutral then idk if I would feel that desire. A lot of my relationships have ended once I told people I was sex repulsed and now I’m hesitant to say that because I feel like I’ve made some progress in eventually being ready to take that step with someone. Now I’m in the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in and I have so much anxiety about whether or not I’ll ever get to the point where I want it. I like dry humping but whenever I see male genitalia I think “i don’t want it anywhere near me” but I’ve seen women who identify as heterosexual express feeling similarly. I feel like I won’t really ever know until I try but I also worry it might be traumatizing. My partner has not tried to pressure me at all and has been letting me lead the pace. but at the moment I feel like I could go my whole life without having sex and be content as long as I didn’t end up alone. If you are sex neutral how did you figure that out? Any advice from women on knowing when or if you’re ready for your first time?

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